Last week I was a mess. All over the place, and it really made me get back into a new mindset.
This week has been extremely busy, and I'm glad to finally have a day off. Yesterday (Saturday 10/22) I had a doctor's appointment for my first fill at 9:45 am. The appointment was about an hour away, and I slept right through it.
I can't believe I missed my doctor's appointment. It was my fault, for not hearing my alarm, and also The Mister's, since he wanted me to sleep in and helped me by turning off the alarm. I woke up at 20 till 11, and was again, mad at myself.
Oh well, I have to reschedule, and I'm trying really hard not to beat myself up about it. I know they do fills every Tuesday, but was trying not to miss any work. They only do Saturday fills once a month...and I missed it. =/
I'll call on Monday. I should have called yesterday, but was so embarrassed.
In other news - my professor dropped me from my class, and I found out yesterday. Way to drop the ball on that as well. I'm hoping it is for the best. With the holidays and birthdays over the next few weeks, part of me thinks it may be a good thing. Also with my new job, I've been working crazy hours. I'll be calling the school on Monday as well.
Yesterday was my Mother's 60th birthday, and we threw her a surprise party - it turned out so nice!
I did my weight in yesterday morning and I'm down 2 pounds (from the 3 I put on)...yeay! I decided I should put my current weight, so that everyone knows where I'm at and what's going on. Yesterday I weighed in at 206.2. Hopefully next week I can be down, I'm hoping 203, but we'll see. With no school on my mind, I should be able to also focus on my workouts.
Best of luck to everyone, cause I know I need it lately.
- Until next time.
Sunday, October 23, 2011
Sunday, October 16, 2011
And the tears flowed.
Yesterday was an emotional day.
Yesterday was the most emotional day I've had yet.
I now understand today, why yesterday was so bad, but here's my day:
I was able to wake up around 9:30 am after going to bed at 4:30 am. I had been up all night baking cakes and cake pops for my nephews' birthday party. 2 cakes, 35 cake pops, and I have a picture somewhere, but they came out adorable.
I was rushing all morning. My to-do list before the party included completing the baked goods, shower, and also do Little Ms' hair. Little Ms. tried to stay out of my way, cause I was cranky, and I feel bad now of my pushing her out of the kitchen so aggressively. It was 5 till 1 pm and that's when the party started, and I still had to put the cakes together. So there was no shower, and The Mister threw Little Ms' hair up in a pony tail.
We went to my brother's house, started assembling everything, and it all came together so well. People would walk in and watch me putting the cakes together, and I spent the first 45 minutes of the party putting these two 3-tiered cakes together.
After that I ate, went outside, and for whatever reason just felt very alone. I helped with the pictures, did the cake and cake pops, helped with present opening. Then it was done, and I wasn't needed. I felt like I wasn't talked to after that. I just felt, alone. I don't know why, and there were tons of people there, but I was uncomfortable, and just felt awkward.
We had another party we had to attend, and The Mister and I talked about not going because I was so tired and I hadn't showered. Little Ms. already had plans to stay the night at her grandma's house, so we weren't sure what we were going to do.
I kind of sat there listening to conversations, and was able to talk with family, while hearing all of the drunk people who managed to huddle and get loud and aggressive with their words, and it just made me feel more uncomfortable as well as more alone. So weird, I'm aware.
I walked over to the Mister and he was huddled with the guys, and they were talking about how vicious the girls were getting, and I hinted towards the Mister that I was ready to go. He didn't see any of them. I then noticed that Little Ms. wasn't playing with the other kids, she was playing by herself with the puppies. I asked if everything was ok, and she said the other kids fight a lot, yell , scream, and hit each other, and she didn't want to play with them. My heart sank.
I walked over to The Mister, told him I was leaving, asked if he wanted to go with me. I was so frustrated when I left, and then when I was leaving, no one noticed. I said bye, got maybe one or two waves from the 30+ people, and it really got to me.
We left, came home, Little Ms. grabbed some overnight stuff for Grandma's house, and we left. I didn't want to go, but The Mister had been drinking (even though he said he wasn't going to) and couldn't take her by himself. So we went, his parents were looking at pictures, and I felt like his Dad was staring at me like he knew something was wrong the entire time.
As we left, we didn't talk about much. I was cranky, moody, and a little mad about how the day turned out. The Mister said going to the other party wasn't an option- which then made me more mad since it was for one of my girlfriends. As I was driving home, there's a bridge in town we go over, and one side of the road stops, the other does not. For whatever reason, I thought they both did. I stopped at the stop sign, then started going, without waiting for through traffic to pass. We almost got hit, it would have been right at the driver's door, and it was pretty scary.
I didn't freak out, all I said was 'sorry, I forgot they don't stop' and the Mister had a face of- wtf. As we continued driving, I just started crying. Horribly crying. The Mister asked what was wrong, and I said nothing, and I didn't know.
We got home, I took a shower, did some homework, the Mister didnt' talk to me, and I ended up taking a nap from 7 pm - 10 pm. The Mister left for work around 10:30, and I was up all night. I was hungry from not eating dinner, so instead of figuring something out at home, I had McDonald's.
The line was long, and I thought about leaving the drive through multiple times because I felt guilty just being there, but didn't. I had a 10 piece chicken nugget, french fries, and an ice tea. Instant gratification.
Then I came home...and cried again.
Today, I am better. I realize yesterday I was just overwhelmed. I have been so busy lately that I haven't stopped to smell the roses so to speak. I haven't been able to appreciate much of anything lately, and that makes me feel guilty.
The party, I still have mixed feelings. I know when we got there, I felt overwhelmed. Then once the cakes were done, I felt invisible. I felt under appreciated, and was hoping to spend better quality time with my family. Instead everyone was drinking, and within the first three hours, they were all drunk...my husband included. The Mister made me mad because he was drinking- don't tell me you're not going to if you don't plan to stick to your word.
I have my own issues, and I'm aware that the majority of yesterday was all in my head. Almost getting hit sent my emotions overboard and just started crying. I'm glad we did not get hit, that we just got the horn honked at us and a truck flipping us off- I think if they would have hit us without slowing down/stopping we would be screwed and possibly not be here today.
I need to manage my time better. I need to make time for myself and my family. I need to stop overbooking myself, and stop to smell the roses. I really need to not run to food when I get emotional. I don't even like McDonald's, but it was either that or Jack-in-the-box because of how late it was- and well, chicken nuggets sounded better to me.
The Mister came home from work this morning and saw the bags- he was very disappointed...and I was really embarrassed. I'm having my own issues with my weight since I have gained 1.5 pounds over the last two weeks. I am so mad and disappointed with myself that I go to food. I don't know what to do with myself lately.
- Until next time.
Yesterday was the most emotional day I've had yet.
I now understand today, why yesterday was so bad, but here's my day:
I was able to wake up around 9:30 am after going to bed at 4:30 am. I had been up all night baking cakes and cake pops for my nephews' birthday party. 2 cakes, 35 cake pops, and I have a picture somewhere, but they came out adorable.
I was rushing all morning. My to-do list before the party included completing the baked goods, shower, and also do Little Ms' hair. Little Ms. tried to stay out of my way, cause I was cranky, and I feel bad now of my pushing her out of the kitchen so aggressively. It was 5 till 1 pm and that's when the party started, and I still had to put the cakes together. So there was no shower, and The Mister threw Little Ms' hair up in a pony tail.
We went to my brother's house, started assembling everything, and it all came together so well. People would walk in and watch me putting the cakes together, and I spent the first 45 minutes of the party putting these two 3-tiered cakes together.
After that I ate, went outside, and for whatever reason just felt very alone. I helped with the pictures, did the cake and cake pops, helped with present opening. Then it was done, and I wasn't needed. I felt like I wasn't talked to after that. I just felt, alone. I don't know why, and there were tons of people there, but I was uncomfortable, and just felt awkward.
We had another party we had to attend, and The Mister and I talked about not going because I was so tired and I hadn't showered. Little Ms. already had plans to stay the night at her grandma's house, so we weren't sure what we were going to do.
I kind of sat there listening to conversations, and was able to talk with family, while hearing all of the drunk people who managed to huddle and get loud and aggressive with their words, and it just made me feel more uncomfortable as well as more alone. So weird, I'm aware.
I walked over to the Mister and he was huddled with the guys, and they were talking about how vicious the girls were getting, and I hinted towards the Mister that I was ready to go. He didn't see any of them. I then noticed that Little Ms. wasn't playing with the other kids, she was playing by herself with the puppies. I asked if everything was ok, and she said the other kids fight a lot, yell , scream, and hit each other, and she didn't want to play with them. My heart sank.
I walked over to The Mister, told him I was leaving, asked if he wanted to go with me. I was so frustrated when I left, and then when I was leaving, no one noticed. I said bye, got maybe one or two waves from the 30+ people, and it really got to me.
We left, came home, Little Ms. grabbed some overnight stuff for Grandma's house, and we left. I didn't want to go, but The Mister had been drinking (even though he said he wasn't going to) and couldn't take her by himself. So we went, his parents were looking at pictures, and I felt like his Dad was staring at me like he knew something was wrong the entire time.
As we left, we didn't talk about much. I was cranky, moody, and a little mad about how the day turned out. The Mister said going to the other party wasn't an option- which then made me more mad since it was for one of my girlfriends. As I was driving home, there's a bridge in town we go over, and one side of the road stops, the other does not. For whatever reason, I thought they both did. I stopped at the stop sign, then started going, without waiting for through traffic to pass. We almost got hit, it would have been right at the driver's door, and it was pretty scary.
I didn't freak out, all I said was 'sorry, I forgot they don't stop' and the Mister had a face of- wtf. As we continued driving, I just started crying. Horribly crying. The Mister asked what was wrong, and I said nothing, and I didn't know.
We got home, I took a shower, did some homework, the Mister didnt' talk to me, and I ended up taking a nap from 7 pm - 10 pm. The Mister left for work around 10:30, and I was up all night. I was hungry from not eating dinner, so instead of figuring something out at home, I had McDonald's.
The line was long, and I thought about leaving the drive through multiple times because I felt guilty just being there, but didn't. I had a 10 piece chicken nugget, french fries, and an ice tea. Instant gratification.
Then I came home...and cried again.
Today, I am better. I realize yesterday I was just overwhelmed. I have been so busy lately that I haven't stopped to smell the roses so to speak. I haven't been able to appreciate much of anything lately, and that makes me feel guilty.
The party, I still have mixed feelings. I know when we got there, I felt overwhelmed. Then once the cakes were done, I felt invisible. I felt under appreciated, and was hoping to spend better quality time with my family. Instead everyone was drinking, and within the first three hours, they were all drunk...my husband included. The Mister made me mad because he was drinking- don't tell me you're not going to if you don't plan to stick to your word.
I have my own issues, and I'm aware that the majority of yesterday was all in my head. Almost getting hit sent my emotions overboard and just started crying. I'm glad we did not get hit, that we just got the horn honked at us and a truck flipping us off- I think if they would have hit us without slowing down/stopping we would be screwed and possibly not be here today.
I need to manage my time better. I need to make time for myself and my family. I need to stop overbooking myself, and stop to smell the roses. I really need to not run to food when I get emotional. I don't even like McDonald's, but it was either that or Jack-in-the-box because of how late it was- and well, chicken nuggets sounded better to me.
The Mister came home from work this morning and saw the bags- he was very disappointed...and I was really embarrassed. I'm having my own issues with my weight since I have gained 1.5 pounds over the last two weeks. I am so mad and disappointed with myself that I go to food. I don't know what to do with myself lately.
- Until next time.
Tuesday, October 11, 2011
Disneyland.
The family and I made a trip to Disneyland over the weekend for Little Ms.'s 6th birthday. It was nice, and although I'm not a fan of Disneyland, we all had a blast.
I worried about eating trends and myself; and talked to The Mister about it. Every time I've ever been to an amusement park, I look forward to the crap. The stuff you don't make at home. The churros, funnel cake, cotton candy, etc. etc. etc.
The Mister came up with a game plan that I could pick one and we as a family would share the one serving. I would get my fix of the taste while not over doing it. We actually stuck to the plan. I was surprised. We all shared one churro, and that was our sweet tooth fix. We had some chicken for lunch (they had other stuff too, but I had chicken and beans), and drank water all day.
We got to snack on fruit (it was nice that they offer healthy options, kind of surprised me), and we also brought in some snacks of our own. Although it was an expensive day, Little Ms. had the time of her life. We spent most of the day hunting down characters so that she could get their autograph and a photo; but that's what made it special to her.
The Mister and I were supposed to hit the gym today after work, but he wasn't feeling well, and my classes just started today so I've been bombarded with school work. I think I'm just going to take my gym clothes to work, and instead of coming straight home, go straight to the gym.
I'm off to do more school work. I have tons of reading to do.
- Until next time.
I worried about eating trends and myself; and talked to The Mister about it. Every time I've ever been to an amusement park, I look forward to the crap. The stuff you don't make at home. The churros, funnel cake, cotton candy, etc. etc. etc.
The Mister came up with a game plan that I could pick one and we as a family would share the one serving. I would get my fix of the taste while not over doing it. We actually stuck to the plan. I was surprised. We all shared one churro, and that was our sweet tooth fix. We had some chicken for lunch (they had other stuff too, but I had chicken and beans), and drank water all day.
We got to snack on fruit (it was nice that they offer healthy options, kind of surprised me), and we also brought in some snacks of our own. Although it was an expensive day, Little Ms. had the time of her life. We spent most of the day hunting down characters so that she could get their autograph and a photo; but that's what made it special to her.
The Mister and I were supposed to hit the gym today after work, but he wasn't feeling well, and my classes just started today so I've been bombarded with school work. I think I'm just going to take my gym clothes to work, and instead of coming straight home, go straight to the gym.
I'm off to do more school work. I have tons of reading to do.
- Until next time.
Sunday, October 9, 2011
It's October...and I haven't posted in 10 days =/
October is here...and in full swing.
My life has turned crazy busy, and will continue to be swamped until after the new year. I guess it's good to be busy, but I just have been feeling very overwhelmed.
I weighed myself Friday morning, and have gone up 0.8 pounds...almost an entire pound. I have also started using the gym 4-6 times per week (the first week was 6, and this last week was only 4 due to schedule conflicts). I told my husband I hope it's the gym, but it could be my eating.
Although I can eat basically whatever I want, I try not to. I haven't been eating as strictly to my eating plan and diet as I was before I started working three days a week. Work is my biggest issue with my eating, and I have vocalized to all of my peers at work that I am trying to stick to an eating schedule and an eating plan, that if they see me try to go off track to stop me. Now that it's out in the open, hopefully it'll be easier.
I've also set alarms on my phone to go off, in case I am busy, I know it's time for my protein shake or whatever it may be. I hope that works out.
Today I went and put a kinect on layaway. Although it's only $150, I don't have it right now, but I had $20 lol. We went to pay on our daughter's Christmas gifts, and the lady in front of us had one, so I decided to get one as well. I get paid on Friday and am hoping to pay in full then, but we'll have to see what our bills are looking like.
I despise the holiday season for the amount of money everything seems to cost. It seems like every October our bills get crazy, then we're catching up November & December, then behind again because of Thanksgiving and Christmas.
I also ordered Billy Blanks PT 24/7 workout system for myself and The Mister. Who knows when I'll get it, since it didn't tell me until after I completed my order that it's back ordered. If I would have known that, I would have bought it from Amazon or even Ebay. Oh well, I should have known better, but hopefully before November I'll get it.
The Mister has been very supportive of me, and has been joining me at the gym, so that's been great. I've been sweating my butt off and I feel like it's not doing anything. One of the girls I work with told me I'm not getting enough cardio, which could be true. That's part of the reason I decided on the Kinect. She does Zumba at the gym, but I figured I could do it at home, and still go to the gym and hopefully we'll see some better results.
My husband also mentioned that my face looks thinner; but I'm not seeing that yet. I've only taken one photo, and I feel that I look exactly the same since that photo. I had a goal of getting under 200 pounds before I was approved to start working out, and that didn't happen (I also got approved to start working out before I thought I would) but now I want to drop this last few pounds before the 22nd (my first fill).
I guess I want to show the doctor that I'm really trying. If I went in right now, I'd be up in weight (not even an entire pound, but still). I guess it's a bit of a bummer to drop 16 pounds like I was holding it in my hand, and then to plateau for what seems like forever, it sucks.
I'm off. I have some things to finish while Little Ms. is with her Mom. We pick her up tomorrow and we're taking her away on an overnight trip. Her birthday is Monday and she's never been to Disneyland- so that's where we're taking her =) I'm really excited, not so much for Disneyland (because I really don't like that theme park vs. the others near it), but for her face and reactions and seeing the characters. It is going to be awesome!
- Until next time.
My life has turned crazy busy, and will continue to be swamped until after the new year. I guess it's good to be busy, but I just have been feeling very overwhelmed.
I weighed myself Friday morning, and have gone up 0.8 pounds...almost an entire pound. I have also started using the gym 4-6 times per week (the first week was 6, and this last week was only 4 due to schedule conflicts). I told my husband I hope it's the gym, but it could be my eating.
Although I can eat basically whatever I want, I try not to. I haven't been eating as strictly to my eating plan and diet as I was before I started working three days a week. Work is my biggest issue with my eating, and I have vocalized to all of my peers at work that I am trying to stick to an eating schedule and an eating plan, that if they see me try to go off track to stop me. Now that it's out in the open, hopefully it'll be easier.
I've also set alarms on my phone to go off, in case I am busy, I know it's time for my protein shake or whatever it may be. I hope that works out.
Today I went and put a kinect on layaway. Although it's only $150, I don't have it right now, but I had $20 lol. We went to pay on our daughter's Christmas gifts, and the lady in front of us had one, so I decided to get one as well. I get paid on Friday and am hoping to pay in full then, but we'll have to see what our bills are looking like.
I despise the holiday season for the amount of money everything seems to cost. It seems like every October our bills get crazy, then we're catching up November & December, then behind again because of Thanksgiving and Christmas.
I also ordered Billy Blanks PT 24/7 workout system for myself and The Mister. Who knows when I'll get it, since it didn't tell me until after I completed my order that it's back ordered. If I would have known that, I would have bought it from Amazon or even Ebay. Oh well, I should have known better, but hopefully before November I'll get it.
The Mister has been very supportive of me, and has been joining me at the gym, so that's been great. I've been sweating my butt off and I feel like it's not doing anything. One of the girls I work with told me I'm not getting enough cardio, which could be true. That's part of the reason I decided on the Kinect. She does Zumba at the gym, but I figured I could do it at home, and still go to the gym and hopefully we'll see some better results.
My husband also mentioned that my face looks thinner; but I'm not seeing that yet. I've only taken one photo, and I feel that I look exactly the same since that photo. I had a goal of getting under 200 pounds before I was approved to start working out, and that didn't happen (I also got approved to start working out before I thought I would) but now I want to drop this last few pounds before the 22nd (my first fill).
I guess I want to show the doctor that I'm really trying. If I went in right now, I'd be up in weight (not even an entire pound, but still). I guess it's a bit of a bummer to drop 16 pounds like I was holding it in my hand, and then to plateau for what seems like forever, it sucks.
I'm off. I have some things to finish while Little Ms. is with her Mom. We pick her up tomorrow and we're taking her away on an overnight trip. Her birthday is Monday and she's never been to Disneyland- so that's where we're taking her =) I'm really excited, not so much for Disneyland (because I really don't like that theme park vs. the others near it), but for her face and reactions and seeing the characters. It is going to be awesome!
- Until next time.
Thursday, September 29, 2011
First post-op appointment
I went to my first post-op appointment on Tuesday (9/27/11- almost 3 weeks after surgery). I got to see my doctor, who is always a pleasure; and he had another doctor with him who is I guess interning to learn how to do lapband and what not...he was also a nice guy.
We looked at my weight, and talked about a plateau coming up, and I had mentioned that I had only lost 1 pound last week, and this week is looking like a 1/2 a pound. The doctor then asked if I wanted a fill. It caught me so off guard. I thought fills were 6 weeks or so after surgery, and the doctor explained that if I thought I was ready, I could do it.
I didn't feel that I was ready. I declined since I had to return to work that day, and wasn't sure how I would be feeling afterwards, or what my eating or drinking would be like, and my biggest concern- should I throw up. I didn't want that to happen at work.
The doctor scheduled me to go in on October 22nd for my first fill, and now I'm concerned that I should have taken the fill on Tuesday, since that is four weeks away. I'm trying not to get discouraged, and perhaps the fill would have helped me stay on track. Either way, it's too late now, and I can't get my first fill until October 22nd.
In better news, I was approved to start working out. Yes! Along with that, I went to the gym for the first time in what seems like months, and got easily frustrated. I was really sleepy yesterday, and cranky in general, so by the time I got to the gym my mood was not in sync with my mind's wanting to be there. I walked on the treadmill, but not for long, before I decided to go home. I am really bummed, more at myself than anything else, and hope that today will be better.
My husband recommended me trying to work out at home to see what I can do, if anything hurts, etc. I may try that today, but I know he wants to go to the gym today when I get off work as well. So we'll see how today goes.
I've been doing really well with my eating this week, up until today. The new position I accepted, the lady I work with, she works through her lunch so that we can get out as early as possible (since she lives out of town). That's fine, and kind of exciting to be able to get off early, but I'm on an eating schedule. I tried to find snacks to take with me, and today learned we do have a microwave. So I'm going to pack a lunch next week and when I'm hungry, just go heat up my lunch.
I was so happy to see new followers, and new people joining the lapband journey. I hope that you all have as great of an experience as I have had. I would do this journey again in a heartbeat. I know I had a lot of emotions and questions when I was looking into things, and am free to answer anyone's questions should they have any.
- Until next time.
We looked at my weight, and talked about a plateau coming up, and I had mentioned that I had only lost 1 pound last week, and this week is looking like a 1/2 a pound. The doctor then asked if I wanted a fill. It caught me so off guard. I thought fills were 6 weeks or so after surgery, and the doctor explained that if I thought I was ready, I could do it.
I didn't feel that I was ready. I declined since I had to return to work that day, and wasn't sure how I would be feeling afterwards, or what my eating or drinking would be like, and my biggest concern- should I throw up. I didn't want that to happen at work.
The doctor scheduled me to go in on October 22nd for my first fill, and now I'm concerned that I should have taken the fill on Tuesday, since that is four weeks away. I'm trying not to get discouraged, and perhaps the fill would have helped me stay on track. Either way, it's too late now, and I can't get my first fill until October 22nd.
In better news, I was approved to start working out. Yes! Along with that, I went to the gym for the first time in what seems like months, and got easily frustrated. I was really sleepy yesterday, and cranky in general, so by the time I got to the gym my mood was not in sync with my mind's wanting to be there. I walked on the treadmill, but not for long, before I decided to go home. I am really bummed, more at myself than anything else, and hope that today will be better.
My husband recommended me trying to work out at home to see what I can do, if anything hurts, etc. I may try that today, but I know he wants to go to the gym today when I get off work as well. So we'll see how today goes.
I've been doing really well with my eating this week, up until today. The new position I accepted, the lady I work with, she works through her lunch so that we can get out as early as possible (since she lives out of town). That's fine, and kind of exciting to be able to get off early, but I'm on an eating schedule. I tried to find snacks to take with me, and today learned we do have a microwave. So I'm going to pack a lunch next week and when I'm hungry, just go heat up my lunch.
I was so happy to see new followers, and new people joining the lapband journey. I hope that you all have as great of an experience as I have had. I would do this journey again in a heartbeat. I know I had a lot of emotions and questions when I was looking into things, and am free to answer anyone's questions should they have any.
- Until next time.
Monday, September 26, 2011
Cookies, Candies, Cakes- Surrounded by Sweets!
I love fall. It's my all time favorite season. I love the change in the air, the scenery, and even the more mellow of a mood people seem to get into. One thing I didn't realize until now is how many sweets are involved in both fall and winter. Insane. It doesn't help that I am usually the one that makes them.
I've decided I'm not going to give up my baking, as I really enjoy it. Some people like to run to clear their head; I like to bake.
Lately it seems as if I have a lot of baking on request. I make these pretty awesome cake pops, and the only other place in town charges a fortune for them and they taste like garbage. So I'll make them, and I sell them for a buck each. The Mister has friends at work that have been requesting them more and more.
I just finished some dark chocolate raspberry ones, and tonight started making some orange dreamsicle ones. I've been pretty surprised that I have no desire to eat them. I also within the last few months, learned how to make oreo truffles. They are decent. I personally expected more, but people seem to like them.
I am not a chocolate fan, nor have I ever been; but, I do like oreos (usually the double stuffed ones or the mint, so that I can't taste the chocolate haha). Those have been heavily requested lately too.
Other baking projects I have coming up include both of my nephew's birthday cakes, as well as 30 cake pops per party; and my Mom's 60th birthday. My sister asked me to make mini cheesecake balls and roll them in a variety of things. So that's on the agenda. Thank goodness I acquired a job that will keep me pretty busy, then I won't have time to think about the baked goods in my house.
As for my lack of desire to eat them- here's what I learned so far in my 2 week experience. When it comes to eating, give me something that will keep me full. Screw the junk food, the candy, the sweets, the crap basically. I have had two times that I have "cheated" so to speak. One was at the rodeo, and the other I'm not sure if it is a true cheat. Either way, both times I felt hungry way earlier than I was supposed to.
I've learned with the right foods in me, I can keep on my eating schedule that I'm trying so hard to follow. I'm hoping that with enough routine, I will be able to feel hungry and know it's noon and lunch time. That at 3 pm I'm going to be looking forward to my protein shake, and that dinner will always include a protein and a vegetable. I have been over this last week eating dinner mainly of either fish, turkey or chicken, and a vegetable. I love it. It's great. No carbs, nothing heavy, I feel great, and before bed (when I'm going to bed on time) I can slip into a good night's sleep.
My other issue lately has been staying up WAY past my bed time...leading me to hunger at like 2 am (such as tonight). I suppress it with water as much as I can, but usually end up with some chicken broth or something liquid to try and kill it.
My goals this week include- sticking to both my food and sleep schedule. I need this routine. I've noticed since I have broken it, I'm having a hell of a time getting back on. I feel like the kid that fell off their bike, and needs the extra push to get on and try again. I need to discipline myself that I shouldn't be going to bed after 11 pm/midnight. There's no reason. Especially now that I'll be working.
Things to work on.
- Until next time.
I've decided I'm not going to give up my baking, as I really enjoy it. Some people like to run to clear their head; I like to bake.
Lately it seems as if I have a lot of baking on request. I make these pretty awesome cake pops, and the only other place in town charges a fortune for them and they taste like garbage. So I'll make them, and I sell them for a buck each. The Mister has friends at work that have been requesting them more and more.
I just finished some dark chocolate raspberry ones, and tonight started making some orange dreamsicle ones. I've been pretty surprised that I have no desire to eat them. I also within the last few months, learned how to make oreo truffles. They are decent. I personally expected more, but people seem to like them.
I am not a chocolate fan, nor have I ever been; but, I do like oreos (usually the double stuffed ones or the mint, so that I can't taste the chocolate haha). Those have been heavily requested lately too.
Other baking projects I have coming up include both of my nephew's birthday cakes, as well as 30 cake pops per party; and my Mom's 60th birthday. My sister asked me to make mini cheesecake balls and roll them in a variety of things. So that's on the agenda. Thank goodness I acquired a job that will keep me pretty busy, then I won't have time to think about the baked goods in my house.
As for my lack of desire to eat them- here's what I learned so far in my 2 week experience. When it comes to eating, give me something that will keep me full. Screw the junk food, the candy, the sweets, the crap basically. I have had two times that I have "cheated" so to speak. One was at the rodeo, and the other I'm not sure if it is a true cheat. Either way, both times I felt hungry way earlier than I was supposed to.
I've learned with the right foods in me, I can keep on my eating schedule that I'm trying so hard to follow. I'm hoping that with enough routine, I will be able to feel hungry and know it's noon and lunch time. That at 3 pm I'm going to be looking forward to my protein shake, and that dinner will always include a protein and a vegetable. I have been over this last week eating dinner mainly of either fish, turkey or chicken, and a vegetable. I love it. It's great. No carbs, nothing heavy, I feel great, and before bed (when I'm going to bed on time) I can slip into a good night's sleep.
My other issue lately has been staying up WAY past my bed time...leading me to hunger at like 2 am (such as tonight). I suppress it with water as much as I can, but usually end up with some chicken broth or something liquid to try and kill it.
My goals this week include- sticking to both my food and sleep schedule. I need this routine. I've noticed since I have broken it, I'm having a hell of a time getting back on. I feel like the kid that fell off their bike, and needs the extra push to get on and try again. I need to discipline myself that I shouldn't be going to bed after 11 pm/midnight. There's no reason. Especially now that I'll be working.
Things to work on.
- Until next time.
Thursday, September 22, 2011
2 weeks post-op - where has the time gone?
Two weeks ago, I became a bandster. Today, I have absolutely no regrets, and would do it again.
Life has been very busy and chaotic, which does send a sense of worry over me; since I am really trying to focus on my eating and health. Believe it or not, the routine I have seems to have stuck. Even when I'm swamped and busy, my stomach lets me know that it's lunch time and it's not waiting. It's been nice utilizing my measuring cups; and now instead of them being a hassle we are all used to them.
At dinner I use my 1/4 cup to scoop my sides of veggies, and my daughter thinks it's so great she likes to as well. My husband uses it because he doesn't want to dirty another dish, haha. We've become quit fond of fish as a family, and I'm surprised how well Little Ms. is accepting of it. Her favorite this far is salmon, but she doesn't mind talapia or mahi mahi.
Tonight is my husband's grandmother's birthday, and we'll be going out to eat with the entire family. I am a little worried about that, for a few reasons. I know that my band is empty, so I don't want to be tempted to eat more than I should, for the fact that if any repercussions do occur, that would not only be embarrassing, but painful I'm sure. Also, I have no idea what to eat. My husband let me know the restaurant, and he recommends some fish and a veggie, or even mashed potatoes, since we know I can eat them fine.
Since I have been able to eat softer foods, I've been trying to stay away from mashed potatoes, because in reality they are really not good for you (but SUPER yummy...I've always said they were my favorite food lol). I've been gearing away from anything with carbs lately, in hopes that it will aid me in my weight loss.
I am currently down one pound since my last post five days ago. I have been told by many that I should expect to plateau. That bums me out, but anything I can do (avoiding carbs) to help, I'm going to try. Since I'm still not approved to start exercising, the only real control is what I shove in my mouth. My goal is to be as close to 200 pounds (preferably under) by the time I'm approved to begin exercising. I'm currently only 5 pounds away. I know I can do that, and am hoping to instead of plateau, just slow down on the weight loss. I know I'm not going to lose another 15 pounds (because I don't want to stick with liquids again).
I'm off, I have some work stuff to accomplish, and have been so excited. I accepted a new position that is one day per week (since I'm a full time student, it fits well into my schedule), and they're already thinking of adding some hours for me. I may be up to 3 days per week, which although it's part-time, is perfect for me. The company is also very amazing, and I can't wait to help do great things for the community.
- Until next time.
Life has been very busy and chaotic, which does send a sense of worry over me; since I am really trying to focus on my eating and health. Believe it or not, the routine I have seems to have stuck. Even when I'm swamped and busy, my stomach lets me know that it's lunch time and it's not waiting. It's been nice utilizing my measuring cups; and now instead of them being a hassle we are all used to them.
At dinner I use my 1/4 cup to scoop my sides of veggies, and my daughter thinks it's so great she likes to as well. My husband uses it because he doesn't want to dirty another dish, haha. We've become quit fond of fish as a family, and I'm surprised how well Little Ms. is accepting of it. Her favorite this far is salmon, but she doesn't mind talapia or mahi mahi.
Tonight is my husband's grandmother's birthday, and we'll be going out to eat with the entire family. I am a little worried about that, for a few reasons. I know that my band is empty, so I don't want to be tempted to eat more than I should, for the fact that if any repercussions do occur, that would not only be embarrassing, but painful I'm sure. Also, I have no idea what to eat. My husband let me know the restaurant, and he recommends some fish and a veggie, or even mashed potatoes, since we know I can eat them fine.
Since I have been able to eat softer foods, I've been trying to stay away from mashed potatoes, because in reality they are really not good for you (but SUPER yummy...I've always said they were my favorite food lol). I've been gearing away from anything with carbs lately, in hopes that it will aid me in my weight loss.
I am currently down one pound since my last post five days ago. I have been told by many that I should expect to plateau. That bums me out, but anything I can do (avoiding carbs) to help, I'm going to try. Since I'm still not approved to start exercising, the only real control is what I shove in my mouth. My goal is to be as close to 200 pounds (preferably under) by the time I'm approved to begin exercising. I'm currently only 5 pounds away. I know I can do that, and am hoping to instead of plateau, just slow down on the weight loss. I know I'm not going to lose another 15 pounds (because I don't want to stick with liquids again).
I'm off, I have some work stuff to accomplish, and have been so excited. I accepted a new position that is one day per week (since I'm a full time student, it fits well into my schedule), and they're already thinking of adding some hours for me. I may be up to 3 days per week, which although it's part-time, is perfect for me. The company is also very amazing, and I can't wait to help do great things for the community.
- Until next time.
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